Tired from the week. Better we meet instead of your movie.

I survived one of the worst weeks in my life.

Coming back from MC office today I was... tired, yes. But happy. It's done.
Money issues with MC which I needed to negotiate with 3 parties. Common, I'm 23, I have 0 euro in my wallet and I was talking about somewhat 13 000. Ridiculus! What a situation.
The same as planning project around Sustainability and continue bringing free plastic bags from the shop every day.

Then - alumni found as speaker for event on education we participate in together with IBLF.

One more BoA member.

Application sent.

4 days of transition including 2 days with externals where you need to be nice, focused, demonstrating leadership. And they are looking at you with hungry eyes, making notes, asking about future. And at the moment you don't want to contribute to CSF anyhow, althougth you are already wanted to be recruited. Directly.

I thought I have a plan. And did my best.

But thinking, reading today i percieve it mostly like a nice effort. Good girl. You are planting the garden, but it's not you who is gathering the apples.
Apples were in my previous application. Fresh & red. Second is "Life Sketch". Black & white. Most probably not inspiring at all. Not fluffy "Nastya Style". No tears on pages, sorry.

The moment comes when you clearly understand that you, stupid bastartd (hello, my friend Marjam") missed. I'm closer to "I'm just usual.Stop running" than ever in my life.